I'm not sure why I still blog maybe it's because I need an avenue to voice out my thoughts and it's a lot more convenient to type.

I have many thoughts on my mind now so much so that it's frustrating. Number one because tomorrow is my birthday and Im actually not looking forward to it. Number two because camp just ended and I have many things so say about it actually but perhaps not on an online platform.

Firstly, about birthdays. It suddenly occurred to me that tomorrow I'll be turning 20 (a few minutes). People always say how they dont want others to celebrate for them cause it's very paiseh, but I once told a friend (just came up with this spontaneously) that celebrating one's birthday is not just for the sake of lavishness, but the people who do celebrate the person's birthday are genuinely happy for the person's existence. For without this special birthday girl/boy, their lives would not have been as enjoyable and meaningful. This person has perhaps made a difference somehow in others' lives.

But facebook has changed a lot about what birthdays mean I think. My morning habit is to go onto Facebook, look at the right hand bar for birthdays, and make sure I wish the person I know a happy birthday. I do go the extra mile to comment a few things I know about the person and personalise the message, because I do find "Hey Happy Birthday(:!" or "happy 20th birthday, ___(insert name)___" very obligatory. Facebook does give meaning because then on that special day, you thought about the person's impact on your own life and how your paths intersected, and then wish the person a happy day in return for all the things she did for you, no matter how minor they were. So I still leave my birthday there, and every year I'm wondering who will actually wish me, and often there are many surprises. It also helps me reconnect with people who actually do wish me, because I personalise all my responses as usual(: there was a year I wrote on everyone's wall. Took me about three hours erps.

Tomorrow I'll just be at home until afternoon when I meet my friends and then night time, I booked a place at Koh Grill to eat shiok maki with my mom and bro. I'm kinda sad that my dad is overseas, becaues I would have loved for a meal. And the weekend was taken away by camp, still sad as well, but no choice. (ok camp was a good experience in fact). Was wondering if I should do something special though since I have time in the morning.

Second thing was camp. All I can say is I have learnt so much from this camp which has been really different from how the xxxx number of project works and events I had sinc sec -jc school. In terms of working relationships, events planning, handling admin work etc I think I have grown so much and gained so many new perspectives in terms of making decisions. Would not say that this has been an easy journey, there has been fair share of frustrations, joy and I'm glad that it turned out well and is over.

Now for my resolutions since I'm 20.
1. On a personal level, to take things easy.
2. On a social level, to always make a difference and care for those who I love
3. On a community level, to work towards my goal of making a difference in a larger community (maybe overseas cip finally?(: )

Okay close shop, good night, and wishing myself a happy birthday(: