sigh, taking a breather from all the mugging today.

i think i should stop being so paranoid about my acads and start appreciating the joy of relaxing and simply just enjoying life. i somehow regretted not going to either stj or one concert and missing out all the fun there could've been and probably one of the highlights of the week.

after thinking quite a bit over the weekends and talking to a few others, i've sorted out my thoughts. and yup feeling a lot better right now(: it has led me realise how something may not turn out to be what you think it'll be. and when you're so confident about it, life just has to surprise you with the opposite.

choir practices have been a lot better recently. although i am guilty of not believing in ourselves for a period of time. but when all else fails eveyrone starts working together and miracle happens sometimes. it's quite heartening to see everyong turning up for extra pracs in the morning and justsimply to enjoy singing. i think the greatest takeway from singing with the alumni each week is that all of them sing with the love for music. it's like an entirely different feeling from the usual practices. i'm quite excited for france and czech republic cause i've never gone for an international choir competition. yet i'm quite worried things wont turn out to be what we expect.

the next two weeks will be like hell for most of us. because practices are intensive and we're all gearing up for our concert first and then the competitions. i've been really stressed out lately, especially the start of last week, but things have been better. i feel so relieved each time i manage to survive a week without completing the work that i'm suppose to do, but then seeing all the work piling up like mad i'm really worried. but the thought of going to france, to czech republic, keeps me going and happy(:

i've always been a firm believer in luck. so when you experience bad luck, things wont get any worse. it'll just get better. i guess that's quite true^^