i think failure might have come at a right time for me. cause i need motivation in my life right now. i was really disappointed cause it was all i've ever wanted. but i guess nobody really understands how i feel right now, and it was most terrible having no one to talk to about it. cause no one really appreciates fully what im saying. except myself. what made me most upset wasnt really this i guess. stay strong(: but this has greatly decreased the confidence i have in myself, and im so much more afraid of rejections after seeing so many capable ones around me not getting what they deserved and i myself having experienced so many failures in a period of time and being so stressed out. then looking back, i realise that only having experienced it myself do i fully understand what others were feeling back then. i think ill take awhile to recover.