this must be one of my low and reflective days again.

Was compiling the results of the all the surveys, felt really bad cause this was initiated during the dec hols but only now do I have all the surveys. Wanted it to kickstart the entire year so that the comm will know what is expected of us and the choir will know how everyone feels. Never mind, this shall be use to perk everyone up.

I have so much to say but I think it's not possible for me to type out everything here cause it might be sensitive. But reflecting on my own abilty I suddenly feel that I haven't been doing enough, and what I promised everyone earlier I have yet to fulfill. Year after year of taking on various leadership positions in school I always come to the conclusion that I am very ineffective. I think I'm more of a work driven person that someone who can take in charge of an entire group of 60. Perhaps it all started out right with the correct level of energy, but as the days passed I think I started feeling drained and lost my enthusiasm in getting things right. Or maybe I'm just being a perfectionist and picking on my own flaws again.

That being said, I'm determined to be even better. at the end of the term I don't want to have to come to the same conclusion I had in the past years. Everyone's human too right, but I can't seem to accept my own flaws as well as everyone else does :/

Shall accomplish one other task before i go sleep (;