Every morning having to wake up super early, carry my ultra heavy bag with the notebook and entire stack of notes and having to squeeze into the train with the rest of the kanjiong office people makes me dread the start of everyday. then spend the entire morning reading lit reviews and get hyped about exploring new areas of holland v for lunch. after lunch it's just 5 hours of boredom or occasional visit by my mentor. hmm the entire attachment experience seems to be so distant from what i had expected. probably some intensive and high end research ); but it turned out to be simple tasks or just readings. I felt as if i sold my entire holidays to them. worst of all they restrict us to 830-600 everyday. failure to stick to official hours will result in disciplinary action :O

hence if you're online in the morning/afternoon and see me online, please talk to me cause im desperately trying to keep myself entertained. even to the extent of bringing every single piece of holiday homework there.

now i kinda understand how boring an office job must be. so nono for me next time. something exciting something i enjoy doing perhaps. sighhh time seems to pass so slowly nowadays that i feel im wasting my holidays. could have signed up for ocip perhaps, gone carolling, gone shopping, take up work opportunities and feel the bliss of getting my first paycheck or some volunteer work tuitioning or baking or playing with my brother. none of these are gonna materialise now. the greatest regret this year i suppose.

and counting down to dip exam on monday! a little nervous, anxious, worried yet a little excited to perform. if i manage to pass there'll be a grad cermony at msia next year! (; so really excited cause i know ive been working quite hard so i hope monday's perf will be my best. everyday chioning home to prac piano and mugging my pieces at the workplace isnt really pleasant though. i reach home so late that now 9-10pm and 7-8am are my official piano practicing hours. got lesson today, tomorrow and saturday. chionggg all the way~ and hope for the best(;

to keep myself alive, im now thinking about all the exciting things coming up. like choir chalet(; and probably dinner sometime next week! and the unexplored food havens in holland v haha.