this was a majorly tough decision to make.

I had actually felt quite happy when i thought i was rejected. because that would just spare me the dilemma of deciding if i should enter smtp. and the thought of being someone normal again, and being perhaps in the same class as all my friends, or at least the same lectures, not having to be in a competitive class and not staying back for enrichment classes made me quite delighted. it was a weird response, usually ppl will feel really disappointed like most others around me who badly wanted in. i was surprisingly happy.

so after that i was in a pretty good mood. went out shopping. but unfortunately i realised i missed the call from the smtp teacher (note the usage of word). so i called him back and i was in. haha my father was like of course go in this kinda thing no need to consider de. called up my senior from smtp then decided to accept. i wonder if i really made the decision myself, or just had no courage to go reject such a good offer. (Y) to deborah who did.

i should feel happy right! and make the most out of it, like amanda said(:

thank youu everyone who i consulted.